Life is a Drama...But I am never giving up...

Wow, its been days I never update my blog(No one gonna read it aso..><). So yeah new update here...

Bz with stuff recently, a gathering event which was cancelled, a 5 hour training schedule for my college performance, and few new games to entertain(Some old..haha..)

Got to finish off Dead Space 2 Singleplayer in 9 hours or something, awesome yet scary storyline..Wanted to replay it, but lazy and I wanted to try something new haha..

Fuu~~ Check my matriks application, turns out like what I expected, I didnt got the chance to study there, so much active in Koko and having high positions...Thank goodness I was provided a great college education now by my parents(Though I have to pay the fees when i work XD) and did not waste so much time as I could graduated earlier..I dont need to tell u all who were the ones who got it( Sensitive ><)..

But as far as I can say, people who should deserve it since they worked so hard to get great results, always ended up with nothing, cause that certain superior factions will be the main priority till now....So for those who worked hard and get awesome results but did not get through, dont give up and continue with your hardwork, cause I believe we will be rewarded at the end...^^

"Though you were cold to me, I didnt not give up on you now my dear...As I was rushing towards you, another glittering hope appeared in me..That "hope" brought me much more love and care towards me than you did...A different personality, black and white style, I am now split into choices for whom should I choose..The "person" or that new and motivating "hope" that I found...If I dont choose now, I will have to lose both of you and left myself alone again..."

Royal Wedding Week...Sucks being not Invited..+.+

Wake up!!!!!! The Royal Wedding In UK....Prince Williams and Kate Middleton's wedding is gonna be the Wedding Of The Century in our very time...Most people pressumed that this is going to be another " Normal girl who fell in love(nobody rises in love) with a Prince" fairytale..The difference is its not a Fairytale, this is the real deal ><.... A toast to them!!!

So yeah, just came back from Tesco, I drove there with my parents, gotta try the new KFC chicken Chop Value Meal....Seriously, if you are only a hardcore KFC food lover, this is a meal for you..Chicken meat is boneless and tasty, small portion but the side dishes( Wedges and corn) with a free drink(Mountain Dew) helps to make the dish balance....The downside? Black Pepper sauce is still tasteless and Aweful(Despite having a lots of mushrooms) and the presentation of the meal is kind of plain...So if your the type who wants to find a really good chicken chop meal...This so call "Value Meal" is seriously not your type....3.5/5 stars....

Gotta talk to the "person" today...Chatted for a while...I dont know if this is true, but that "person" is acting cold at me again...Seriously, I felt that the more often we chatted, our relationship gets worst....Sigh, I seriously have no idea when encountering with you....It seems that you are trying to avoid me, treat me like I am not suitable for you, or something....Well, I just have to stay positive for now...But seriously, if you have to insist of keeping up with this attitude...I dont mind losing you, just to save my sanity from being stolen away....Giving up is not about losing everything that u tried, but it is about having the strongest strength of letting you go away..

"There are thousand of girls out there waiting for me...Though it seems that you are the one for me...However, feelings and trust intercept with our personalities and differences, I have to accept the fact that it would not have a very happy ending for us both....Cause you have your visions, where a piece of me is not in your mind....Therefore my dear, I have to let you go away, if it hurts too much for me, in order to let my soul unhurt and able myself to have the courage and venture this story of mine...."

Forturna, Eisdeina, Dissidia, Calleigh...

Yeah...A few days just happened so fast...Lots of incidents happen and go...Making up my mind to stick with college life instead of F6 adi....So yeah...I wanna feel the new breath again...If I screw it up during the past, let me make some redemptions in the present and make achievements in the future...So yeah...College life continues...^^

Yeah...Thinking of changing myself...Ever since that "person" told me lots of things about me...I been thinking, I have wasted so much time not realising how good or special I am...I keep thinking my mistakes, flaws, doubts and worries...Which makes no effort to move forward or keep going....

Yeah...Now I seen the true objective or vision on what I am suppose to do...I know I mess things up for the past few years, but this is a totally new chapter in my life..I can amend things now since I am mature and mentally strong enough to "think"...So yeah...The new blaze has awaken in me..No more thinking of the past(Though we were taught to look back at the past to prevent any misfortunes to happen) too much, get my gear ready and move forward with confidence and hard work...^^

Windy End.....Stormy Beginning....

After the clock stroke at 12.10pm....Everyone went out of the exam hall with different emotions and gestures....I was the last of the Computer Sci Students( 3 of us, but 2 left adi be4 the time ends...) and yeah...I was alone, trying to express my feelings for that exam paper...Too bad...50 other students are all taking Accounting...So yeah...I kept it to myself.....

Everyone got their plans, some going for lunch in gangs, others wanna have fun at the karaoke studio since it was the end of my Semester 1...After waiving goodbye, I walked alone down this petty road and grab a basketball to shoot some hoops, improving my gameplay all alone....Haha...Crazy dude here...After that, it was back home and semester break begins....

Lots of stuff going on in my head...Tomolo will be the my secondary school's prize ceremony giving day...Wont be attending since I dont get any achievements or stuff..Might stay at home and become the game geek like in the past....

Didnt get the chance to write for a coluum in a magazine article, only 2 are selected...Guess I am not worthy after all...So whats the point of applying for the chairperson seat if I am not worthy? Sigh...Tough luck...But I was informed I might get another chance....

Holidays, going back to Penang(YAY!!!) sometime in May....I have to prepare songs and activities for Teachers Day..The whole thing is not even prepared and discuss...Zzz...Seriously dont like it now, but I have no choice, since I enrolled myself already...

So yeah...The end of FIA Jan 2011 intake Semester 1 ended brick by boring brick for me...Nothing much to do as I wait till 2nd semester begins....Hope it would be a better semester and I pray that I will get great marks...I really need to show that "person" what I am capable of...Everything I do is for her...

"Haha...My courage enables me to say my last goodbye to you before the break starts..You will be back to your hometown, going out with friends, and maybe get an achievement or two...Wonder if I ever cross your mind....Cause for me it happens all the time...Enjoy your holidays my dear...Will be seeing you after the break...."

One Last Dance...With You I Must

Today gotta woke up 11am in the morning...Cause I slept like a pig XD....Got to go to college for one exam....Somebody got caught for cheating...And...THe paper was okay......Discuss wif my classmates on what to act for Lecturer's day...So far no news...But I will be composing the song for them....Suck right?? 1 more paper to go....Wanna study later...while chatting with that "person"

"Seriously, she doesnt know that it was her after all....Either she is playing dumb, or acting cool like always...She didnt realise that all the pain and hurting happens to me....Well..Thats the result of liking someone where she is not realising it...Wish I have the courage and patience to confess the real truth when the time comes...."

Arghh!!!!

I just write crap only here...I dont care but I need to express my anger...><...

ARGH!!!! Exam like crap!!! English like crap!!! No time to finish it....Maths so easy can also make silly mistakes zzz!!!!! 5 marks and still counting will be gone in the blink of my eye!!! Argh!!!! Stupid me!!!! Well...Enough of this crap...As long will get 75 above I will be grateful adi...><...Ish...Blame my myself...

Tomolo gonna be the big day...I cant afford to lose marks in BC anymore...I read it, revise it and done everything i can adi...I wont do the same stupid mistakes like today's exams....Hell yeah I wont....

"Its seems to me, you live your life, like a child in an iceberg, cold and lost, waiting for people to save your life...Too bad, reality isnt what it seems..."