Windy End.....Stormy Beginning....

After the clock stroke at 12.10pm....Everyone went out of the exam hall with different emotions and gestures....I was the last of the Computer Sci Students( 3 of us, but 2 left adi be4 the time ends...) and yeah...I was alone, trying to express my feelings for that exam paper...Too bad...50 other students are all taking Accounting...So yeah...I kept it to myself.....

Everyone got their plans, some going for lunch in gangs, others wanna have fun at the karaoke studio since it was the end of my Semester 1...After waiving goodbye, I walked alone down this petty road and grab a basketball to shoot some hoops, improving my gameplay all alone....Haha...Crazy dude here...After that, it was back home and semester break begins....

Lots of stuff going on in my head...Tomolo will be the my secondary school's prize ceremony giving day...Wont be attending since I dont get any achievements or stuff..Might stay at home and become the game geek like in the past....

Didnt get the chance to write for a coluum in a magazine article, only 2 are selected...Guess I am not worthy after all...So whats the point of applying for the chairperson seat if I am not worthy? Sigh...Tough luck...But I was informed I might get another chance....

Holidays, going back to Penang(YAY!!!) sometime in May....I have to prepare songs and activities for Teachers Day..The whole thing is not even prepared and discuss...Zzz...Seriously dont like it now, but I have no choice, since I enrolled myself already...

So yeah...The end of FIA Jan 2011 intake Semester 1 ended brick by boring brick for me...Nothing much to do as I wait till 2nd semester begins....Hope it would be a better semester and I pray that I will get great marks...I really need to show that "person" what I am capable of...Everything I do is for her...

"Haha...My courage enables me to say my last goodbye to you before the break starts..You will be back to your hometown, going out with friends, and maybe get an achievement or two...Wonder if I ever cross your mind....Cause for me it happens all the time...Enjoy your holidays my dear...Will be seeing you after the break...."

One Last Dance...With You I Must

Today gotta woke up 11am in the morning...Cause I slept like a pig XD....Got to go to college for one exam....Somebody got caught for cheating...And...THe paper was okay......Discuss wif my classmates on what to act for Lecturer's day...So far no news...But I will be composing the song for them....Suck right?? 1 more paper to go....Wanna study later...while chatting with that "person"

"Seriously, she doesnt know that it was her after all....Either she is playing dumb, or acting cool like always...She didnt realise that all the pain and hurting happens to me....Well..Thats the result of liking someone where she is not realising it...Wish I have the courage and patience to confess the real truth when the time comes...."

Arghh!!!!

I just write crap only here...I dont care but I need to express my anger...><...

ARGH!!!! Exam like crap!!! English like crap!!! No time to finish it....Maths so easy can also make silly mistakes zzz!!!!! 5 marks and still counting will be gone in the blink of my eye!!! Argh!!!! Stupid me!!!! Well...Enough of this crap...As long will get 75 above I will be grateful adi...><...Ish...Blame my myself...

Tomolo gonna be the big day...I cant afford to lose marks in BC anymore...I read it, revise it and done everything i can adi...I wont do the same stupid mistakes like today's exams....Hell yeah I wont....

"Its seems to me, you live your life, like a child in an iceberg, cold and lost, waiting for people to save your life...Too bad, reality isnt what it seems..."

Maybe....

Well...Exams starting tomolo....I am still watching tv series now..Lol...

Well...I am been thinking...Maybe I am abit too overrated and reacting in someway...I dont know what it is or what i have done...I could sense it when I felt that particular "aura"....

Well...I promised...That from today..I will be a changed person...No longer the same person where you will all know...I rather unleashed the true me instead of keeping it hurting everyone including you and myself....

Well...Maybe is a mind game of mine, a publicity stunt I created for your utmost attention, Or maybe...I am trying to be closer to you...

Who knows? XD

PS: RM50 million is spent for making every Malaysian an email acc....What a joke in a circus!!!!!

Calmity Shift....

Got back my Coursework marks....BC: 38/50....Sigh....Kinda low....Comparing to those in my English class...Nearly all of them got a high 40+ marks...Creme of the crop...Time for exams to save my butt from being fired eh.....><....

"Your acting cold towards me again...Maybe its just me, couldnt you believe that everything that i say and did, wasnt just decieving or fake....I take every moment of you in my life granted no matter how sweet or bitter it is....Its okay if you dont need me know...But I wanna let you know...You are the only thing in my mind now..."

My World 3.0...Is a Viscous, Corrupted World...Yet Its Still A Memory...

Its gonna be a long story...Enjoy the storyline...

Sigh....Today's Moral Exam was tough...But answerable...

However, my eyes witness and heard the most terrible truth...Part of the class( Not all btw...) were taking answers from classmates..Not only that, they did not respect the exam hall and treated it like their own personal playground...The reason is not about the childish behaviour or the attidude which happened during the exam period..It was the cheating and disrespecting the lecturer when the exam was held which makes me blow my top instantly..How can students, young, educated, intelligent and the future leaders of the world.. Could do such corrupted acts and dishonour the exam hall and the lecturer like nothing ever happen...Thou, that wasnt the horrible horror I felt after all... I regretted, ashamed and disguted not by the actions of my classmates, but it was the past who God knew...It could happen to me after all...Karma..

Truth? I was a sinner of the past, the past particle, and the past chronicles of my life...I was a fraud, a copycat,and most importantly a cheater when in my secondary school life..Yes, I cheated during my exams..Well, Chinese exam paper for every monthly exam...I felt no guilt or conscious when doing this "aweful" act..It was indeed fun and enjoyable, as I could get a pass for my test paper and yeah...Got to go away freely...However, I did not get a pass and failed in the end..I guess God was fair after all...

Seeing their actions brought a huge reflection to me...Karma after all...Its true and will backfire u after all..Struck my head today..And I was counting my sins till the end...So yeah...That whats shocked me after all..The ghost of my past comes to hunt the weakest part of me......

To anyone from FIA Jan Intake 2011 who are reading this..I am not putting the blame to everyone or Anyone....I am just a student and a classmate to you all so I have no rights or watsoever in advicing you...But be4 you are going to repeat this act, plzz read my past Sins and think twice 1st be4 doing it again..Trust me..Its not worthy...Besides that, I apologise if I said anything Insulting or offensive to you...Not pointing the finger of blame to anyone..But to one and only ME.....

PS: I wanna say a word or 2 to my dear friend Sim Yi Han, who is going to leave FIA Jan 2011 Intake after Semester 1 for Form 6, in order to pursue his passion for English...I wish you all the luck and best in your future..Thank you for teaching me Japanese and giving me Mizuki Nana's song...Your presence is mostly remembered in my heart and mind...Sigh, another character in the chapters of my life is about to disappear...

"Memories of the Nobodies are more crippled and fragile than the tears of my Memories...Cynical remarks spoil the truth and misplaces the Heartful thought of mine..Baptised me from the evilness and fear which devours my soul and the heart of a beast..."